Tonight was a wonderful night and it was just glorious! It was just me and my friends casually drinking and enjoying each others company and it made me so very happy. There was no drama, no anger and no chaos and it was just brilliant so I must say thank you one and all for the wondrous night you provided :)
I truly hate being sick. Not only is now a terrible time to be feeling like a walking corpse due to exams and other unfriendly situations but since it involves headaches (How I despise them) it is affecting my emotions and how I react to things. So I am dead feeling, overly emotional and feeling rather sad so ladies and gentlemen I would like to warn each and everyone of you to not fuck with me til I get better for I highly doubt I will respond in a civilised manner.
Tonight I am proud to say that something truly amazing has happened. On this night a friendship of mine was restored to the wondrous state that it was before all of this crap happened. Now this fills me with joy as honestly I don’t deserve this level of kindness after my actions but I feel so very privelaged to know someone who can step above a lot of the petty things and I am even happier to say this person is my friend. Not only have you helped me to make some important decisions tonight but you have showed me how much I truly need all of you and how much I treasure our friendship. So all I can say is thank you Michael so very much and I swear as long as I draw breath I will do my very best to make sure your trust in me is never broken :)
As I was meditating I realised a simple truth I am a hypocrite of the worst kind. Time after time I have been forgiven for my negative and irrational actions while on the other hand every slight that is done against me (real or imagined) is held onto for the longest of times. So as of today I am letting it all go and everyone has a completely clean slate. On a unrelated note I don’t think I will be posting as much for a while as I have decided to start keeping a diary again
“I think it’s lame to blame others for the pain you’re feeling. If you can’t handle it, move to some place you can. Well, here I am. Nowhere suits me fine. Nowhere feels just right a lot of the time.”— Henry Rollins (via play-crackthesky)